A M E R I C A N O
Eli lies down the sofa,his deep blue eyes staring at the ceiling.Aesop's hand runs on his face,observing every beauty of him.But what the embalmer sees is his concerned face,for a man who has visions on his own,he sure goes through hard things.
"Are you still thinking about what happened this morning?" Carl firgures out that he might feels comfortable seeing the scene.
"Indeed." He mumbles "I didn't know you have had to endure those things.."
Aesop slightly smiles,eyes sticking on him "Im used to it.You don't have to worry about me."
Eli knows,and he wants to not bothering the young man too.But he just can't stop thinking about it.About how others lives are much more miserable than his.
There were times he wanted to die,keeping thoughts that the world stopped spinning around him.Ever since their first meet,the whole world has been revealed under his eyes.He sees the world through Aesop's eyes.Endearing the beauty and pity for the sorrow.But he knows Aesop doesn't feel the same,he doesn't hope so.But everytime the seer faces the embalmer's cold heart,his heart also seems to be scattered by the ice.
"You should give up this job Aesop,it's—"
"I won't.And i would never do that." Aesop replies immediately,he not even blinks between his words.They exchange gazes before Eli finally looks away.
"I completely understand.But—"
"You can never understand,Eli.You're too different from me.I can understand you but you will never feel the same as I do." The embalmer says,sadness shown in his voice. "I love you Eli,but in a different way.My love and your love is completely different.I wish you never knows,because when you do,you will run away Eli.I want you to be here forever."
'What can I do to help him' is the only thing in Eli's mind right now.
Eli silences,he doesn't want to say anything when he looks at Aesop's sad and lonely face.He knows his feelings for Aesop aren't love,nor friends,and it keeps bothering him everyday.
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Eli lies on the ground,moving his gaze to the young man in front of him.His vision is covered in blood and he barely breaths because of the injured throat.
"It's time Aesop,it's time for me to go.." Eli mumbles,his voice is so small that Aesop has to kneel down to listen to his last words.
"Tell me Aesop,what have you been thinking?What have you kept in that mind of yours?" He cried,tears lightening his blue eyes.Aesop feels like this man's eyes are gonna bright up the dark night.
"I hoped to understand you Aesop..."
The embalmer shows no emotion,it breaks Eli's heart.
Tears running down Eli's cheeks,he isn't sad.He was waiting,wait for someone to love and endearing him.Even though it's the odd love from Aesop,he doesn't care.He's completely hopeless,he knows.But what he have ever wanted is love,is care.
Despite his painful wounds,Eli smiles.
Aesop looks at the man,it's like there is a rock placing in his heart.He should be satisfied,happy with the scene.But why he doesn't feel like that.Love burns his heart as Eli's breath fades,scattering pieces flying with the wind.Tears streaming down,warming his cold skin.He cries.
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