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Xavi's POV

"You've been spacing out these past three days. Buti nalang hindi ka lutang nung nga present ka ng robotics mo." Tera said while walking holding her laptop. I snap out of my thoughts and slowly look at her.

"Huh?" I confusedly ask. She hear her flick her tongue.

"Tingnan mo, hanggang ngayon. Lutang ka pa rin. May nangyari ba?" Tanong niya.

Muntikan na.

I shake my head. "Wala naman, wala naman nangyari. Bakit?" I ask once again, I'm not really getting what she means na lutang ako.

She grunt. "Xavi, simula nung Monday, lutang ka. Natutulala ka lagi tapos kapag tinawag ka gulat na gulat ka. Ano bang nangyari?" She ask.

I sigh and slowly walk down the stairs papalabas ng main building.

"Wala nga, baka stress lang." I said while looking down. I adjusted the folders that I'm holding. We are going to give it to one of our teachers. Projects and more reports and research paper.

"Saan ka naman na s-stress? Let me remind you Ms. Alvarez, last na 'tong mga project for this quarter. So dapat nga relax ka ngayon eh." She said, I pursed ng lips and nod.

"Have you ever done sex chat?" She stopped walking and so do I. I stare at her and she's just looking in front.

Then she slowly look at me which a find a bit creepy.

"What the fuck?! Sex on chat?! Seryoso ka ba? Of course not!" She exclaimed. A small 'o' formed on my lips and I slowly nod.

I was about to start walking again when she stopped me.

She scratch her forehead. "May nag-aya ba sa'yo na gawin 'yon? Cause Xavi, I know you. Hindi ka magtatanong tungkol dun kung hindi mo pa na encounter 'yung ganung word." She said. I pursed my lips and shake my head.

"Wala naman, nabasa ko lang sa Facebook. No big deal." I said, she examined my expression first before nodding.

We continue to walk towards the dormitory where a teacher's faculty is located. We pass our folders and portfolio before once again going back to our classroom.

Since teacher's are busy right now for some other things. We are vacant for an hour now. And for our next subject, our teacher is in a conference for the school news paper.

Which is, I'm a part of it. So it means I have to avoid eating cold and sweet foods for my voice since I am a Radio Broadcaster.

I stare on my phone. The conversation of me and Bright flashed on my phone screen.

After he said those words, I felt my whole body become cold. My palm started to turn pale and my fingers on my feet became even more cold. So I immediately stopped that conversation.

He was laughing right when I said that I'm freezing. He told he was sorry to say that. Medyo inosente pa daw ako. But the fact that the only innocence I have is not doing the deed is kinda funny. I've watch some videos read and other things. So I think that the only innocence left in me is that I haven't done it yet.

"Xavi okay ka lang?" I snap my head up and see Sam looking at me worriedly. I immediately hide my phone and smiled at her.

"Yes.. yes I'm fine. Why?" I ask.

She squinted her eyes, looking at me.

"O..kay," She said and sit down beside me.

"So Maam Rosa told me to tell that you need to start watching news again. You know, journalism. So we have to collect new and hot topic news. So.. 'yun lang. okay ba?" She asked and I nod.

But then I realized something. Ang tagal pa ng journalism. Or also known as DSPC. It's like.. 4-5 weeks from now. Maghahanda na agad?

"Hindi ba.. matagal pa ang DSPC?" I confusedly ask. Mag te-take pa nga kami ng quarterly exam. We still need to review for those exams. Hindi naman pwede na pagsabayin ang daalwang 'yon cause it's both a big deal.

Sam nod. "Yeah pero ang sabi lang kasi ni Maam, for practice purposes lang daw. So it's like, 'yung mga makukuha mo na news is for you to use to practice." She said and I slowly nod.

"Pero hindi pa naman kailangan now right? Pwede ka naman the upcoming weeks?" I unsurely ask. Hindi kasi kakayanin ng utak ko ang pagsabayin 'yon. Yes, I can review different subjects at a time. But journalism and studies are different. They are like different genres.

Sam nod once again. "Of course naman. You don't have to rush it. It's your choice naman eh." She said and I nod.

I pursed my lips. "I have a question about Bright." I said and her brows furrowed.

"Go on.." She said. I take a deep breath and look at her eyes.

"Have you.. experienced having sex chat with him?" I whispered it so no one can hear us. Her eyes widened and look around.

"What the fuck? Puta, how did you know about that thing?" She ask. I pursed my lips and lean closer.

"It's the harem right? He mentioned it to me and, we.. uh I.. seduced him and wealmostdidit." I said my last sentence a bit faster. She look at me with wide eyes and she pull back.

"Xavi.." she called and my eyes widened.

"What? Why? Did I do something wrong? Is seducing him a bad idea?!" I exclaimed. Worried if it's something wrong.

She lean closer once again. "Don't ever do that again. For me, you might be 18 years old but you somehow still a baby." She said and my rows furrowed.

"What the.. I am not." I said before pouting. She laughed and pointed on my lips.

"See! You look cute when you are pouting! That's why I think you're still a baby." She said and I just rolled my eyes.

"So tell me.. is it a bad idea on seducing him?" I ask and she nod.

"Yes.. baka maging isa ka lang sa mga girls niya." She said and my brows furrowed.

"What do you mean.. girls niya?" I confusedly ask.

She shrug. "You know, the girls he do harem with." She said and I slowly nod.

"But have you did it with him?" I asked with a teasing smile on my lips.

She look at me with surprised expression. Her mouth opened but no words came it. She look around before leaning closer.

"Yes.. but please, don't tell it to anyone." She said and my eyes widened. I immediately pull away and start nodding.

"Okay, I won't promise." I said and she nod.

She pointed at me. "Just remember, don't do it with him. It's dangerous, just be his baby or what. You're still a baby." She said and I just pout. She stand up and bid a goodbye before leaving the classroom.

I sigh and lean back to my chair. Ang sakit na sa ulo, ang dami ko pag-aaralan. And journalism is coming. In few months I also need to prepare for UPCAT. But UPCAT not my priority at the moment. Matagal pa naman. I need to review for exams first. Then DSPC.

"Aila.." I called them. They are just two chairs away from me, Aila is really my seat mate pero lumipat muna siya.

She raise her head and smile. I signaled  them three to come closer and they did. Aila sit down on her chair while Arven sat on the chair where Sam sat a while ago while Yen stand in front of me.

"Diba Editorial Writer ka?" I point at Arven, she pursed her lips before smiling and nodding.

"Tapos collaborative ka diba?" I ask Yen and she nod.

"And ikaw kasama kita sa broadcasting?" I ask Aila and she nod.

"Sabi ni Sam, sabi daw ni Maam Rosa ay maghanap-hanap na daw ulit tayo ng mga hot topic news. Kasi next month DSPC na. Hindi naman daw kailangan na kailangan na pero just to practice lang daw. Kailan pa natin mag review." I said and them three just nod.

"So pwede na kahit after exams nalang?" Aila ask and I nod.

"Sure, ako nga after exams nalang din." I said and she nod.

I stand up to go towards Tera's direction who is watching something on her laptop. So when I sit beside her, she remove her earphones and look at me.

"Yes? Problem?" She ask..

I shake my head. "Collab ka diba?" I ask and her brows furrowed.

"Huh?" She confusedly ask.

I massage my temples. "What I mean is, sa journalism, collaborative publishing ka diba?" I ask again and this time she nods.

"Hindi naman kailan na ngayon, but just to in form you, kailangan na natin mag focus sa mga news. Next month na DSPC. We need to practice again. After exams na ako mag gagawa." I said and she nod.

"Diba birthday ni Jake next week?" She ask..

"This weekend." I corrected and she nod.

"Uuwi ka?" She ask and I nod.

My eyes widened when I realized what is happening.

"Kaya siguro nagalit sa 'kin si Jake!" I exclaimed and Tera look at me confused.

"He called me last week, nagtanong siya kung uuwi ako this weekend. I said maybe then ask him why. Siguro nag tampo siya kasi akala niya nalimutan ko birthday niya." I said mad Tera slowly nod.

"Probably, you know Jake. Tampuhin siya minsan. Kaya nga siguro." She said and I nod.

Then an idea popped inside my head.

"Sasabay ako sa inyo pag-uwi. Then daan tayo ng Pacific Mall, ibibili ko lang siya ng regalo." I said and she look at me with furrowed brows.

"Wow ha, naoll reregaluhan." She said and I just chuckled.

"Matagal pa birthday mo, ano ba gusto mo?" I ask and she look at me with a weird smile.

"Ikaw bahala~" she singsong, I just chuckled and shake my head.

"Bahala na, pasabay ako sa Friday." I said before going back to my chair.

Buti nalang sumipot ang last subject Teacher namin. Akala ko talaga isang teacher lang ang papasok ngayon. Understandable naman kung wala 'yung ibang teachers. May iniwan din naman silang gawain kaya hindi naman gaano nasayang oras namin sa wala.

May pinuntahan pa sila Tera, Aila, Arven at Yen, pero dumiretso na ako sa dorm, nagpahinga ng kaunting oras at nag re-write na rin ng notes at the same time. Nang matapos ay naglinis na ako gaya ng nakasanayan. Bago ay muling namahinga.

Sa mga ganitong oras. Inaasahan ko na may lalaking mag cha-chat.

Pero parang na late siya ngayon. Madalas ay 6pm nag cha-chat si Bright. Napansin ko rin na hindi siya nag reply sa good afternoon ko, both sa private message  at group chat.

I can say that we are having this different kind of bond. Our conversation is somehow, sweet. Tho I always try to tell myself that he's just nice. Nabanggit na rin kasi niya sa 'kin na sa school daw nila ay madalas siyang tawagin na pa-fall kahit ang gusto lang naman daw talaga niya ay makipag kaibigan.

Sino ba naman kasi  ang hindi mahuhulog sa mag chats niya? Specially his 'I love you', iba rin ang dating ng mga messages niya. Lalo pa at nasa linguaheng English ito. Para kasing mas malakas ang dating ng mga chats kapag nasa English. Kahit minsan ay dumugo na ang utak ko kaka-isip ng isasagot ko.

Lumipas ang oras, nakapag rosary na ako at nakapag toothbrush na rin. Nakatawag na rin si mama pero wala pang kahit ano na chat mula kay Bright.

Nalungkot ako bigla, at dala na rin ng emosyon ay nagtalukbong ako at utay-utay tumulo ang aking mga luha sa aking pisnge.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako nagkakaganito. Dahil siguro mabilis ako ma attach sa isang tao kaya kapag nawala sila ay nasasaktan agad ako. He made me feel so special. Siya palang ang lalaki bukod kay papa na nagsabi sa 'kin na maganda ako.

Dahil sa hitsura kong 'to? Bilbil at pimples, walang nagsasabi sa 'kin na maganda ako. Bright is the only guy who made me feel so special. Siya rin ang nag-iisang lalaki na bumabati sa 'kin.

Pakiramdam ko kami pero hindi.

That's why we come up to our label.

'More than friends, but less than a lover.'

'Yan ang tingin namin sa isa't isa. Cause honestly 'yung paraan ng pag-uusap namin. And our topic itself isn't just for normal friends. But since we haven't commit to any relationship yet, that's just our label for now.

I flinch as I hear my phone beeped. I wipe my tears and immediately pick up my phone.

From Boi:
Hey, I'm sorry, I was busy. How's your day?

A smile immediately grew on my face. That's our nicknames we come up. His is boi and mine is gurl. Ain't special but I find it cute.

To Boi:
I'm fine, I actually missed you.

I am very open to him. Kung ano ang nararamdaman ko, sinasabi ko. That's a characteristic of Xaviana Alvarez. I don't tend to hide my feelings, I am very transparent person. If I'm happy there you'll see me smiling or jumping. If I'm mad, you'll see my brows furrowed and probably taking deep breaths.

And in Bright's case, he's already used to it. We've been talking for weeks now, heck almost a month. So he's used to me being clingy and shits.

From boi:
Sorry, I was doing something. *cuddles*

I slightly chuckled. I find that thing cute. We've been doing that thing since we stared talking. Those acts but just through messages.

From boi:
I miss you too.

And that's enough to send butterflies to my stomach. I sat down on my bed and type a reply.

To boi:
Btw, Sam told me that  we shouldn't do harem. Like what i told you. My hands and feet feel so cold that time.

From boi:
Lol
Okay
No harem.
You're still a baby.

Napasimangot ako bigla, why do they keep on calling me baby? Well.. kung baby mo pwede naman. 

To boi:
Fine, I'm just your baby.

From boi:
Okay

Oof-
Gtg, I need to do something. Go to sleep now. Goodnight!
Love you❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

My smiles grew wider. His ILY's never fail to flatter me.

To boi:
Uno reverse card

I have never said 'I love you too' to him, the reason, takot ako sa commitments. For some reasons I find myself just replying 'Uno reverse card' to him and not 'I love you too'.

The days went by so fast. Natapos na kami sa lahat ng project. Examination week na next week, but I decided na Monday and Tuesday nalang mag review since Wednesday to Friday and exams.

Uuwi pa kami ng Tagkawayan.

So me, Tera, Addison and Aila are here now at Pacific mall. Nag message na ako kay mama na baka gabihin kami dahil pupunta muna kami sa Pacific. and knowing Lucena, alam kong ma ta-traffic din kami papuntang grand terminal.

"What about this? Magugustuhan kaya ni Jake 'to?" I ask them three while raising the grey Puma jacket.

"Sus! Masyado ka sa effort Xavi, kahit ano naman magugustuhan ni Jake. Di naman siya choosy eh." Addison said. I pout and put the jacket down.

"Parang may tampo kasi sa akin si Jake, akala kasi niya nalimutan ko birthday niya. Kaya gusto ko siya regaluhan." I said and them three just nod.

"So kasya kaya 'to sa kaniya?" I ask, Aila nod.

"Oo, payat naman si Jake eh." Aila said..

"Oy! Di ah, may laman naman siya, muscles pa nga eh." I said and Tera scoffed.

"Sus, pwede na 'yan. Mag di-dinner pa tayo." Tera said and I nod. Pumunta na kami sa cashier at binayaran ko na ang jacket. Pumunta kami sa Buddy's at doon ay nag dinner.

How I love sisig so much!

After dinner na medyo minadali namin, bumili na rin ako ng milktea at ininom iyon habang nakasakay sa Jeep papuntang grand terminal.

Halos 7pm na nang makarating kami sa grand. At saktong pagdating namin sa sakayan ng van ay may space pa para sa aming apat. Ang ganda nga at nasa likod lang kami ng driver. Nasa pagitan ako ni Aila at Addison habang si Tera ay nasa may pinto.

Gusto ko sana matulog kaso si Aila at Addison ay parehas nakaunan sa balikat ko. Alagain ko pa dahil madalas muntikan mahulog ang ulo ni Aila habang si Addison naman ay malikot.

Nakarating kami sa Tagkawayan ng bandang 12pm. Hassle talaga, diretso linis na ako ng katawan at natulog. Bukas ko pa tuloy matitikman ang niluto ni mama na spaghetti.

Pagkagising ko kinabukasan ay agad kong napansin ang pagtunog ng cellphone ko. Doon ay kung anong ganda ng bungad ng umaga ko.

Bright send a picture of him still in bed. He's just wearing a white plain shirt at medyo magulo pa ang buhok niya. But I find it cute specially he have thick lips.

From boi:
Good morning, gising kana? What time ka nakauwi kagabi?

To boi:
Almost 1am.

From boi:
What the-
It's 6am, you should sleep more.

To boi:
No, I'm fine. It's my body alarm that woke me up

From boi:
Hmm
Okay
But I'm sure you're still tired. Take a rest for the whole day.

Yikes, di pwede mag rest ng whole day. May susuyuin pa akong nagtatampong best friend.

To boi:
I can't, I have a birthday party to attend later.

From boi:
Is it that important? You should take care of yourself. Hindi maganda ang sobrang puyat. And you also mentioned you're having your exams next week. Pati utak mo pagod.

To boi:
Yeah, it's really important. It's my best friend's birthday. I can't not just attend it. He might get upset.

From boi:
Wait-
He?
Boy?

Napa-awang ang labi ko ng bahagya. Selos na ba siya? Hala, huy Bright. Hindi mo dapat pinagseselosan si Jake. Baka si Ken muna magustuhan ko bago 'yung mokong na 'yun.

To boi:
Yeah, he's my boy best friend. Medyo nagtatampo nga rin siya cause he thought na nakalimutan ko birthday niya. He will turn 18 now!

From boi:
Hmm
Okay
Have fun then
Suyuin mo muna siya.
He's more important than me cause he's your boy best friend.
Go eat your breakfast.
Bye
Love you❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

"Ang konti nung heart." Bulong ko.

And based on his messages.. I know what's happening here.

"Ipinanganak ako ng nanay ko hindi para manuyo ng mga selosong lalaki." Bulong ko habang minasahe ng ulo ko.

Napahinga ako ng malalim. "Pero kung si Bright lang naman ang susuyuin ko, game!"

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