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Debut or Die - 240
Keun SeJin looked a little puzzled, but immediately changed his expression and smiled.- Oh, are you looking for something?- No, I switched rooms with Bae Sejin hyung.- ... Room?- Yes, it's just for today.I sat right in front of him, on Bae Sejin's bed.- Let's talk.- ...The tension briefly left SeJin motionless.But he was able to speak normally.- ... Hmm, what do you want to talk about?The urge to say "Your attitude these days, you bastard" made me feel a lump in my throat, but I endured it."I can't talk like that unless I want to fight."Instead, I sat down, interlocked the fingers of my hands, and calmly got out the words I needed to say.- First... I want to thank you.- ...!- I heard that you had a hard time while I could not wake up. You dealt with both the company and the hospital.I spoke calmly and bluntly.- I couldn't talk about it with you alone before...I thought it would be better to do it now. Thank you for taking care of me.- ...From what I see, what I said seems to have hit him.- Thank you so much for caring about me... Are you crying?- Huh? N-no... oh.SeJin shouted shamelessly with his eyes reddened and wide open.- It's because I'm moved~!...I think he's more relieved than moved."It wasn't... the reaction I expected."After all, this boy seems to have suffered in his own way for the past few days.He smiled a little less formally, probably because he was embarrassed but relaxed.- Oh~ It's a bit embarrassing.Yeah, I'm glad he's feeling better. I crossed my arms.- There's nothing to be embarrassed about. By the way...Now I need to hear something.- Are you mad at me?- ... What?- I feel like it's been a long time since I last heard you tell me something other than "You're right~" when I talk.- ...I touched the edge of the bed with my finger.It's a little strange to see this bastard's face get tense again, but it's better than hiding it and then exploding.- Let's solve problems whenever we get the chance. If you were upset that our discussion about the concert ended with me unilaterally receiving apologies?- Did it seem unfair to you?- ...!- ... No, that day... I guess I didn't think it through properly. I guess you're saying that because I've been careful with my words~.It doesn't seem like that to me.This bastard got so angry that he stabbed himself and didn't correct his words.He said what he really thought.- I don't think so.- ...!- I know you're doing it this way now because you want to move on, but I'm saying this because you shouldn't be the only one who doesn't give his real opinion for a long time.I held back a sigh.- So, I regret planning a solo concert without saying anything when the group was in a bad situation?- It wasn't like that.Keun SeJin gritted his teeth. In the end, he couldn't bear it and looked at me seriously.- Park MoonDae, do you think I'm a sociopath?- ...!- Do you think I'm mad because you're doing a solo concert? Because it's more trouble for the group?- ...... Isn't it?SeJin took a few deep breaths, as if to reduce his anger, and then cleared his voice.- Did it ever occur to you ... that I was worried that the guy who had been in a coma was overexerting himself?- ...I thought there might be a reason for that.- You thought about it, but instead, you thought I was upset because I was afraid you would cause trouble for the group, right?- ...I think this is the first time I've heard this guy speak so directly.Keun SeJin now speaks almost as if he has gained momentum.- You always do that. It's like that every time there's an injury or controversy. You bet your life on it. Yeah, I understand that you want to do well, but... I can't help but worry about my friend.
- ...- We're friends, right? You... no. Honestly, I don't know. I thought it would be okay if I couldn't promote with you, all I wanted was for you to wake up.- ...!- But, as soon as you woke up, you talked all over the place and made a meaningless noise... when before you were about to....Keun SeJin stopped talking, apparently choking. I didn't know why this guy reacted like that until I understood the word that was silent.This guy was scared.His friend almost died, and even though they ended up fighting, he tried to speak carefully."He misspoke...but he took it so seriously that it got to an absurd level."TN: He means that SeJin realized that he made a mistake by speaking up in that discussion, he felt so guilty for having done so that from that day on he reserved himself when conversing with MoonDae not to do it again.
And I thought Park MoonDae was a friend.- ...It suddenly dawned on me.Lee SeJin is in his early 20s. It's an age where he would normally be fooling around in college.Since he was usually very supportive, I unconsciously judged him in a stricter way compared to other people, as if he was a coworker of my actual age.I had tried to analyze this guy's behavior only in terms of his career and benefits."That...was my mistake."That must have been kind of hard for him, right?I hesitated for a moment, then nodded.And I spoke to him seriously.- It's okay. You were trying to be considerate, but I was worried too, so I took it too hard. I'm sorry.- ... It's not like that.- No, and you... you're my friend. I never thought you weren't.- ...!I remembered the status window and all the questions that were still unresolved.- It's just that I... I don't have a lot of time to afford, so I'm in a hurry to get results right now.- ...- I'm sorry. This isn't about a solo gig, I mean, I'm sorry to have bothered you.SeJin nodded his head without saying a word. I could see drops of water falling on the blanket on his bed.Still, the air felt cooler.- ... Huuh.I lay down on Bae Sejin's bed. The owner of the bed would be terrified to see me like this.And I thought."It's similar to a comic book..."Although it's not an adventure comic, I never thought that I would argue with this guy and have to prove how valuable his friendship is. It's something to live and watch for a long time.It's embarrassing. But seeing it that way wasn't meaningless.- ...It was a little awkward, but we were silent for a while, feeling the comfortable atmosphere in the room.And after a while, perhaps because he had already calmed down, Keun SeJin pushed his luck and spoke in a more cheerful tone.- Ah~ I'm really embarrassed now.- It's more embarrassing for me to do this in someone else's room.- Ya, that's nothing. I was the only one who cried!SeJin smiled brightly. He's in a condition where he has fire in his ass.TN: "엉덩이에 불나" (fire in the ass) comes from the slang "엉덩이에 뿔난다" (hot ass), which means "to laugh after crying".- But MoonDae MoonDae-ya.- Yes?- ...why can't you afford it?- ...- It's not for me to say, but it's not the time to worry about what you achieve. Wouldn't it be nice to do it a little slower? You've got to be in this group for five years...- ... I want to.Now it was easy to admit it.But at the same time, I was thinking about my reality.- I don't know what's going to happen, though. I don't know if I can do it because I want to. There are so many ... possibilities that could happen.- ...- So, I'm trying to do everything I can do now so I can still do it in five years.... Excluding details such as the unrealistic elements of the status window, what I said was the absolute truth.Suddenly, I heard a big sigh and a fake laugh from SeJin.... Fake laugh?- MoonDae MoonDae, are you sure you're not from NIS?- ...??- No, you look like an agent~TN: NIS = National Intelligence Service of South Korea.Why is he biting into the expired rice cake again?When I looked at him with an absurd face, SeJin chuckled.- You said you have amnesia, but did you know that you sometimes talk about the past in detail?- ...!- But strangely~ the time doesn't match?- ...!!... Come to think of it, I forgot because no one asked about "Park MoonDae's" past in particular for the past two and a half years.So.... I guess I'm a bit careless sometimes, so I talked about "Ryu GunWoo's" past.I broke out in a cold sweat"Shit."But SeJin didn't ask any more questions. Instead, he laid down on his bed.- Eucha~ Well, everyone has their own secrets, right?- ...- But ... if you want, you can tell me. SeJin has heavy lips, did you know? It's rare to have the chance to make a friend like that~.TN: "Heavy lips" = will not open his mouth and will keep secrets.I looked at the guy lying on the bed across from me.Considering his personality, he may not have thought about the fact that I had a status window or the possibility of a reboot. At best, it may have occurred to him that I was lying about my real age."Still..."Still, it makes me feel a little more comfortable.I smirked.- Okay.- ...!- I'll do it when I can talk.After all the status abnormalities are over, there may come a day when we can drink and talk seriously for three days and two nights.... And that might work.I added jokingly.- ... Until then, you'll have to wait. Please cooperate with me.- ...SeJin was silent for a moment, perhaps he had a subtle or complicated idea.And he answered slowly.- Do you work for NIS?- Ya.- Haha! It's okay~It seemed like he wanted to keep joking, but I understood that he did it because he wanted to end the conversation with a good atmosphere.- Ah, MoonDae MoonDae, it's already 12 o'clock~ I have to go to bed early to practice tomorrow!- Okey.I shook my head and stood up to turn off the light.- Oh~ Do you have the initiative to get up to turn off the light? It must be great to be your roommate everyday~.- Let's go to sleep.- Yes.I turned off the light in the room of the roommates who shared the same name.And without saying anything else, I went to my bed as I knew I wouldn't feel uncomfortable with that guy again from the next day onwards.The only side effect was that Bae Sejin returned from the living room to his room with a very sad face....I'll have to consider changing his room from time to time.- The outfits have arrived~- Good.- Wi-will this be okay...?- Considering our experience so far, I'm sure you'll like it!- That's right~The preparation for the concert went smoothly step by step without any problems, and soon after, the day of the concert broadcast was just around the corner.
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The day came when the concert "As your heart goes" would be broadcast, which would have Park MoonDae as the host and TeSTAR as the guest.The graduate student sat in front of her desk at home without going to work in the lab.It was because, afflicted with the sophism "There is Dr. Chok-chok, but not Master Chok-chok," she wanted to enjoy an endorphin-filled time for the first time in a long time.TN: "척척박사는 있어도 척척석사는 없다" (There is Doctor Chok-chok, but not Master Chok-chok) refers to the fact that one may have extensive knowledge on various subjects, but that does not mean one can do everything. The Loviewer uses this excuse to feel good and please herself by skipping work and seeing what she wants.- Ah... it's so good...She felt that she could comfortably meet Park MoonDae after a long time.She would see Park MoonDae, who recovered after the last 18 hellish days when her life was a bit difficult due to emotional disturbances, but now seemed to be fine.Therefore, she was very excited."Given that it's a talk concert, I don't think he's going to try too hard!"Above all, there was a good atmosphere that everyone was looking forward to!"Surely she's looking forward to seeing MoonDae too, right?"The graduate student smiled excitedly and exchanged messages with her fansite master friend several times, then logged on to the platform where the concert would be broadcast."I have to register so I can leave messages on the live concert!"It was a bit of an unfamiliar platform... less popular for her, but the layout was easy to use and seemed to be very effective, so she couldn't resist registering.No, even if she had a slight feeling of dislike for the new platform, she was eager to leave a comment on this concert."You won't be able to read it, but I still want to support it...!"She was very happy that MoonDae had recovered, and wanted to thank him very much for coming back strong and healthy."Waaah, I became his fan too!"The young girl recalled that she became a fan after hearing her master friend's request, but then she shook her head, put her hands on the keyboard and waited for the concert to start.Soon after, rainbow lines appeared on the black screen and the countdown began.
— 3333
— I love you, TeSTAR ㅠㅠ
— Hahaha there's so much people
— I like the concert is a donation one~
— ¡3!
— Aaaaah I want to see CheongWoooo
TN: "3333" or "3" are comments meaning "I am the third to see this/agree with the above comment".The comments passed quickly, and soon the screen lit up, showing a somewhat exciting classical setting.It was a concert hall with seven chairs.The same as had been seen in the advertisement.That is, none of the TeSTAR members were yet to be seen.
- Oooh
- Where is TeSTAR?
- Still not showing up?
"They're just going in? I guess MoonDae will enter first, won't he? Because he's the host."The graduate student was looking at the screen and tapping her knees excitedly.And suddenly, a voice was heard.[Welcome to the talk concert that will feature audience participation.]- ...!It was Park MoonDae.
- It's MoonDae MoonDae
- Will we only hear his voice?
- He won't show up?
"Hul, it looks like he will indeed be the first one out!"The young girl was quick to quickly write in the comments "MoonDae is the best," but soon heard it again.[Before we start the performance, we need your choice to proceed smoothly.]A message appeared on the electronic display behind the concert hall.
[TeSTAR is]1. Cool
2. Lovely
- ...??The graduate student looked at the screen with eyes as big as peas."What... is that?"The real-time comment window is also full of question marks and laughter.Park MoonDae's peaceful voice could still be heard.[Use the # button on the keyboard and post the number in the comments. The number will be counted on the electronic display.][Please choose "As your heart goes on."]After listening to it, some people quickly typed the combination in the comment box.
ー #1
ー #2
As soon as they sent in their comments....The numbers began to run alongside the words on the concert hall's electronic display in real time.
[TeSTAR is]1. Cool (25)
2. Lovely (31)
It was a definite reflex.- Hul!
- I can't believe they're going to use this at the concert hahaha.Thus, the 21st century's non-face-to-face talk concert began.
Keun SeJin looked a little puzzled, but immediately changed his expression and smiled.- Oh, are you looking for something?- No, I switched rooms with Bae Sejin hyung.- ... Room?- Yes, it's just for today.I sat right in front of him, on Bae Sejin's bed.- Let's talk.- ...The tension briefly left SeJin motionless.But he was able to speak normally.- ... Hmm, what do you want to talk about?The urge to say "Your attitude these days, you bastard" made me feel a lump in my throat, but I endured it."I can't talk like that unless I want to fight."Instead, I sat down, interlocked the fingers of my hands, and calmly got out the words I needed to say.- First... I want to thank you.- ...!- I heard that you had a hard time while I could not wake up. You dealt with both the company and the hospital.I spoke calmly and bluntly.- I couldn't talk about it with you alone before...I thought it would be better to do it now. Thank you for taking care of me.- ...From what I see, what I said seems to have hit him.- Thank you so much for caring about me... Are you crying?- Huh? N-no... oh.SeJin shouted shamelessly with his eyes reddened and wide open.- It's because I'm moved~!...I think he's more relieved than moved."It wasn't... the reaction I expected."After all, this boy seems to have suffered in his own way for the past few days.He smiled a little less formally, probably because he was embarrassed but relaxed.- Oh~ It's a bit embarrassing.Yeah, I'm glad he's feeling better. I crossed my arms.- There's nothing to be embarrassed about. By the way...Now I need to hear something.- Are you mad at me?- ... What?- I feel like it's been a long time since I last heard you tell me something other than "You're right~" when I talk.- ...I touched the edge of the bed with my finger.It's a little strange to see this bastard's face get tense again, but it's better than hiding it and then exploding.- Let's solve problems whenever we get the chance. If you were upset that our discussion about the concert ended with me unilaterally receiving apologies?- Did it seem unfair to you?- ...!- ... No, that day... I guess I didn't think it through properly. I guess you're saying that because I've been careful with my words~.It doesn't seem like that to me.This bastard got so angry that he stabbed himself and didn't correct his words.He said what he really thought.- I don't think so.- ...!- I know you're doing it this way now because you want to move on, but I'm saying this because you shouldn't be the only one who doesn't give his real opinion for a long time.I held back a sigh.- So, I regret planning a solo concert without saying anything when the group was in a bad situation?- It wasn't like that.Keun SeJin gritted his teeth. In the end, he couldn't bear it and looked at me seriously.- Park MoonDae, do you think I'm a sociopath?- ...!- Do you think I'm mad because you're doing a solo concert? Because it's more trouble for the group?- ...... Isn't it?SeJin took a few deep breaths, as if to reduce his anger, and then cleared his voice.- Did it ever occur to you ... that I was worried that the guy who had been in a coma was overexerting himself?- ...I thought there might be a reason for that.- You thought about it, but instead, you thought I was upset because I was afraid you would cause trouble for the group, right?- ...I think this is the first time I've heard this guy speak so directly.Keun SeJin now speaks almost as if he has gained momentum.- You always do that. It's like that every time there's an injury or controversy. You bet your life on it. Yeah, I understand that you want to do well, but... I can't help but worry about my friend.
- ...- We're friends, right? You... no. Honestly, I don't know. I thought it would be okay if I couldn't promote with you, all I wanted was for you to wake up.- ...!- But, as soon as you woke up, you talked all over the place and made a meaningless noise... when before you were about to....Keun SeJin stopped talking, apparently choking. I didn't know why this guy reacted like that until I understood the word that was silent.This guy was scared.His friend almost died, and even though they ended up fighting, he tried to speak carefully."He misspoke...but he took it so seriously that it got to an absurd level."TN: He means that SeJin realized that he made a mistake by speaking up in that discussion, he felt so guilty for having done so that from that day on he reserved himself when conversing with MoonDae not to do it again.
And I thought Park MoonDae was a friend.- ...It suddenly dawned on me.Lee SeJin is in his early 20s. It's an age where he would normally be fooling around in college.Since he was usually very supportive, I unconsciously judged him in a stricter way compared to other people, as if he was a coworker of my actual age.I had tried to analyze this guy's behavior only in terms of his career and benefits."That...was my mistake."That must have been kind of hard for him, right?I hesitated for a moment, then nodded.And I spoke to him seriously.- It's okay. You were trying to be considerate, but I was worried too, so I took it too hard. I'm sorry.- ... It's not like that.- No, and you... you're my friend. I never thought you weren't.- ...!I remembered the status window and all the questions that were still unresolved.- It's just that I... I don't have a lot of time to afford, so I'm in a hurry to get results right now.- ...- I'm sorry. This isn't about a solo gig, I mean, I'm sorry to have bothered you.SeJin nodded his head without saying a word. I could see drops of water falling on the blanket on his bed.Still, the air felt cooler.- ... Huuh.I lay down on Bae Sejin's bed. The owner of the bed would be terrified to see me like this.And I thought."It's similar to a comic book..."Although it's not an adventure comic, I never thought that I would argue with this guy and have to prove how valuable his friendship is. It's something to live and watch for a long time.It's embarrassing. But seeing it that way wasn't meaningless.- ...It was a little awkward, but we were silent for a while, feeling the comfortable atmosphere in the room.And after a while, perhaps because he had already calmed down, Keun SeJin pushed his luck and spoke in a more cheerful tone.- Ah~ I'm really embarrassed now.- It's more embarrassing for me to do this in someone else's room.- Ya, that's nothing. I was the only one who cried!SeJin smiled brightly. He's in a condition where he has fire in his ass.TN: "엉덩이에 불나" (fire in the ass) comes from the slang "엉덩이에 뿔난다" (hot ass), which means "to laugh after crying".- But MoonDae MoonDae-ya.- Yes?- ...why can't you afford it?- ...- It's not for me to say, but it's not the time to worry about what you achieve. Wouldn't it be nice to do it a little slower? You've got to be in this group for five years...- ... I want to.Now it was easy to admit it.But at the same time, I was thinking about my reality.- I don't know what's going to happen, though. I don't know if I can do it because I want to. There are so many ... possibilities that could happen.- ...- So, I'm trying to do everything I can do now so I can still do it in five years.... Excluding details such as the unrealistic elements of the status window, what I said was the absolute truth.Suddenly, I heard a big sigh and a fake laugh from SeJin.... Fake laugh?- MoonDae MoonDae, are you sure you're not from NIS?- ...??- No, you look like an agent~TN: NIS = National Intelligence Service of South Korea.Why is he biting into the expired rice cake again?When I looked at him with an absurd face, SeJin chuckled.- You said you have amnesia, but did you know that you sometimes talk about the past in detail?- ...!- But strangely~ the time doesn't match?- ...!!... Come to think of it, I forgot because no one asked about "Park MoonDae's" past in particular for the past two and a half years.So.... I guess I'm a bit careless sometimes, so I talked about "Ryu GunWoo's" past.I broke out in a cold sweat"Shit."But SeJin didn't ask any more questions. Instead, he laid down on his bed.- Eucha~ Well, everyone has their own secrets, right?- ...- But ... if you want, you can tell me. SeJin has heavy lips, did you know? It's rare to have the chance to make a friend like that~.TN: "Heavy lips" = will not open his mouth and will keep secrets.I looked at the guy lying on the bed across from me.Considering his personality, he may not have thought about the fact that I had a status window or the possibility of a reboot. At best, it may have occurred to him that I was lying about my real age."Still..."Still, it makes me feel a little more comfortable.I smirked.- Okay.- ...!- I'll do it when I can talk.After all the status abnormalities are over, there may come a day when we can drink and talk seriously for three days and two nights.... And that might work.I added jokingly.- ... Until then, you'll have to wait. Please cooperate with me.- ...SeJin was silent for a moment, perhaps he had a subtle or complicated idea.And he answered slowly.- Do you work for NIS?- Ya.- Haha! It's okay~It seemed like he wanted to keep joking, but I understood that he did it because he wanted to end the conversation with a good atmosphere.- Ah, MoonDae MoonDae, it's already 12 o'clock~ I have to go to bed early to practice tomorrow!- Okey.I shook my head and stood up to turn off the light.- Oh~ Do you have the initiative to get up to turn off the light? It must be great to be your roommate everyday~.- Let's go to sleep.- Yes.I turned off the light in the room of the roommates who shared the same name.And without saying anything else, I went to my bed as I knew I wouldn't feel uncomfortable with that guy again from the next day onwards.The only side effect was that Bae Sejin returned from the living room to his room with a very sad face....I'll have to consider changing his room from time to time.- The outfits have arrived~- Good.- Wi-will this be okay...?- Considering our experience so far, I'm sure you'll like it!- That's right~The preparation for the concert went smoothly step by step without any problems, and soon after, the day of the concert broadcast was just around the corner.
* * *
The day came when the concert "As your heart goes" would be broadcast, which would have Park MoonDae as the host and TeSTAR as the guest.The graduate student sat in front of her desk at home without going to work in the lab.It was because, afflicted with the sophism "There is Dr. Chok-chok, but not Master Chok-chok," she wanted to enjoy an endorphin-filled time for the first time in a long time.TN: "척척박사는 있어도 척척석사는 없다" (There is Doctor Chok-chok, but not Master Chok-chok) refers to the fact that one may have extensive knowledge on various subjects, but that does not mean one can do everything. The Loviewer uses this excuse to feel good and please herself by skipping work and seeing what she wants.- Ah... it's so good...She felt that she could comfortably meet Park MoonDae after a long time.She would see Park MoonDae, who recovered after the last 18 hellish days when her life was a bit difficult due to emotional disturbances, but now seemed to be fine.Therefore, she was very excited."Given that it's a talk concert, I don't think he's going to try too hard!"Above all, there was a good atmosphere that everyone was looking forward to!"Surely she's looking forward to seeing MoonDae too, right?"The graduate student smiled excitedly and exchanged messages with her fansite master friend several times, then logged on to the platform where the concert would be broadcast."I have to register so I can leave messages on the live concert!"It was a bit of an unfamiliar platform... less popular for her, but the layout was easy to use and seemed to be very effective, so she couldn't resist registering.No, even if she had a slight feeling of dislike for the new platform, she was eager to leave a comment on this concert."You won't be able to read it, but I still want to support it...!"She was very happy that MoonDae had recovered, and wanted to thank him very much for coming back strong and healthy."Waaah, I became his fan too!"The young girl recalled that she became a fan after hearing her master friend's request, but then she shook her head, put her hands on the keyboard and waited for the concert to start.Soon after, rainbow lines appeared on the black screen and the countdown began.
— 3333
— I love you, TeSTAR ㅠㅠ
— Hahaha there's so much people
— I like the concert is a donation one~
— ¡3!
— Aaaaah I want to see CheongWoooo
TN: "3333" or "3" are comments meaning "I am the third to see this/agree with the above comment".The comments passed quickly, and soon the screen lit up, showing a somewhat exciting classical setting.It was a concert hall with seven chairs.The same as had been seen in the advertisement.That is, none of the TeSTAR members were yet to be seen.
- Oooh
- Where is TeSTAR?
- Still not showing up?
"They're just going in? I guess MoonDae will enter first, won't he? Because he's the host."The graduate student was looking at the screen and tapping her knees excitedly.And suddenly, a voice was heard.[Welcome to the talk concert that will feature audience participation.]- ...!It was Park MoonDae.
- It's MoonDae MoonDae
- Will we only hear his voice?
- He won't show up?
"Hul, it looks like he will indeed be the first one out!"The young girl was quick to quickly write in the comments "MoonDae is the best," but soon heard it again.[Before we start the performance, we need your choice to proceed smoothly.]A message appeared on the electronic display behind the concert hall.
[TeSTAR is]1. Cool
2. Lovely
- ...??The graduate student looked at the screen with eyes as big as peas."What... is that?"The real-time comment window is also full of question marks and laughter.Park MoonDae's peaceful voice could still be heard.[Use the # button on the keyboard and post the number in the comments. The number will be counted on the electronic display.][Please choose "As your heart goes on."]After listening to it, some people quickly typed the combination in the comment box.
ー #1
ー #2
As soon as they sent in their comments....The numbers began to run alongside the words on the concert hall's electronic display in real time.
[TeSTAR is]1. Cool (25)
2. Lovely (31)
It was a definite reflex.- Hul!
- I can't believe they're going to use this at the concert hahaha.Thus, the 21st century's non-face-to-face talk concert began.
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