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Chapter 305

That day, in the meeting room, Kim RaeBin showed signs of nervousness.

"It's okay, RaeBin-ah, you've done well so far."

"Of course you have~ Just because it doesn't work well doesn't mean it's bad to listen to! There's no way it's bad, right?"

"That's right, I like Kim RaeBin's song!"

"...Thank you very much."

His complexion looked a little better after hearing the words of encouragement from the others.

But when he opened the lid...

TL/N: Referring to the phrase "Opening the bottle cap" and discovering that the contents are not what you expected.

"So we're going to go with numbers 2, 4, and 5, right? Okay. RaeBin-ah's number is..."

"... 3. That was his number."

"...!"

His arrangement ended up not even being chosen.

Literally, it was discarded.

It's funny to explain it so easily, but it's something no one could have guessed.

'Kim Rae-bin's draft was finally scrapped...'

This is because, so far, his arrangements have made it into the final version of the songs to the extent that it's okay to say they "should" do so.

Of course, there have been times when they have not been fully adopted. However, at least some crucial parts of their drafts were properly reflected and participated in the final version.

Then, as always, the AR team members talked about their next project.

"We will make a great arrangement for our RaeBin-ah~ concert songs."

However, it was the first time he failed since our debut.

'On top of that, he has endured several days without sleep.'

"..."

I took a look at the data of the 'Blind Vote Results of the Concert Arrangement Plan,' which came in the mail, and turned off the screen.

And I lay back with my arms folded.

'There must be several reasons.'

The direction was different, the AR team came up with a good draft that satisfied their tastes more, or they had enough time to work on it more.

But why now?

'Shit, RaeBin must feel like he was pushed from behind and made to fall in the mud at the most crucial moment of his life.'

However, it would be foolish to overturn the voting results at this point.

Because of his personality, there is no way he can feel happy now. I can't lower the quality of the arrangements to take care of his mental stability.

'That would be useless, it would only make the situation worse.'

But it would also be stupid to leave it as it is.

"..."

I got up from my seat.

After the morning concert meeting, I was to quietly enter the room of the person who was trapped in this situation.

But there was no need to go far. Kim RaeBin was sitting on the sofa in the living room.

Next to him were: Cha YooJin who looked quite firm, Seon AhHyun looking worried, and Keun SeJin with a complicated expression.

"YooJin held something out to RaeBin."

"Kim RaeBin, eat this."

RaeBin was wearing a coat and socks. Looks like someone caught him when he was about to leave.

"I'm not going to eat. I'm going to go to the studio for a while..."

"Why the studio?"

"...!"

The guys I was talking to looked at me. RaeBin swallowed saliva and mumbled under his breath.

"Because if I don't work to correct the deficiencies, I won't be able to produce satisfactory results on the next try..."

"Kim RaeBin, do it right next time! It may not work this time. No problem, it's okay!"

However, Kim RaeBin did not bother or sympathize with Cha YooJin's words.

"Nothing assures whether it's okay or not."

He replied in a low and calm voice.

"But since I failed this time, I think there is a higher probability that it is not right. So, I should prepare myself more to decrease that probability..."

"..."

"..."

After a short silence.

"RaeBin-ah, why don't you take a break?"

"T-that's right. There's still a lot of time left until the concert... You need to fill up on energy...!"

The words burst out in an instant.

They probably thought that something might happen if they sent him to the studio as it is.

'I think so too.'

I don't know if he'd rather be angry or resentful, but that's like an obsessive-compulsive symptom.

Keun SeJin sat next to him and tapped him on the shoulder.

"Even monkeys sometimes fall out of trees, don't they? Get some rest and think about your performance~ Rest is also important."

"..."

I think... I'll have to help him.

I spoke.

"You've been running without rest until now, so you have to do it. Maybe the muscles will loosen up and stick if you rest, but you haven't rested too much."

"..."

"Relax."

In the end, Kim RaeBin reluctantly nodded. I held back a sigh.

It was a bad time.

* * *

A few days passed.

Kim RaeBin did not go to the studio as promised, but his complexion was still not good. The impact of the first failure didn't seem to disappear yet.

Still, after a busy time filming a promotional video for the tour, he relaxed a little because some arrangements for the concert songs had not yet been made...

'Everything is quiet.'

Maybe I didn't adjust correctly to the time change, but my body woke up at the crack of dawn.

'Should I drink some water?'

I quietly left the room so my roommate wouldn't wake up.

And I found something unexpected. I saw a light filtering in from outside the living room terrace.

"...!"

The light source is too close coming from beyond the window. It is like a light from an electronic device.....

'Could it be an invader?'

Don't tell me a crazy bastard came down from the roof with a rope all the way to the terrace. Well, that makes sense.

I approached carefully, not limiting the degree of danger I came to think about. I opened an emergency contact so I could report it quickly if necessary.

And what was out there... I was right that there was a person, but it wasn't a stranger.

"Kim RaeBin."

"...!"

Kim RaeBin, who was sitting on the tile, looked back in astonishment.

"H-hyung."

Seeing him wearing headphones and the program displayed on the screen...! He was obviously working.

This little bastard secretly went out to the veranda at dawn and was crouched down working.

"What are you doing?"

"I'm..."

"You're fixing a song."

That's why he looked tired during the day.

It was understandable that his complexion was not recovering. This idiot...

I opened the balcony door, walked in, and stood in front of him.

"I..."

RaeBin was hurriedly trying to get up from the floor, but he hit the keyboard at random.

And the laptop window changed.

"...!!"

Kim RaeBin... was monitoring at the same time he was working.

[Result of the Blind Vote for the Concert Arrangement Plan]

It was the group mail with the same title as the one I saw a few days ago.

'That...'

Looking at RaeBin's recent appearance, he probably didn't come up with some productive ideas and didn't feel motivated after seeing that mail again.

I'm sure that must have shocked him enough.

But... that mail didn't just show the voting results.

To establish a reasonably fair direction in the voting, it was decided that we would write anonymously the reasons why we chose some numbers and also why we didn't.

Still, you can guess who wrote each comment by the way they speak.

#4 is the most fun.

#2 and #5 are smooth and pleasant to listen to~ Fighting! ^^

I liked them all, but #5 is the most natural sounding. I didn't choose #1 or #3 because I don't think they suit my taste as much.

"..."

In a way, it was good that no one made any pretentious comments saying they liked their own drafts better, but it was also unfortunate.

Well, all the members voted together.

...I also posted a comment, one for each issue. Under RaeBin's song, too.

The sound is excessive.

"..."

Kim RaeBin has been reading the review in detail silently and repeatedly these days.

And none of the comments said RaeBin's song was any good.

'Shit... Really.'

Was he trying to work while taking that into consideration, at this late hour?

"Listen."

I sat across from him and made eye contact.

"Majority votes aren't always right. In fact, the public might like your arrangement better."

"..."

"You don't have to pay so much attention to this result. It's just an arrangement for a concert."

Kim RaeBin responded abruptly.

"Even so, hyung also judged that the quality of my arrangement was bad."

"..."

"The answer that said the sound was excessive... Didn't you give it to me, MoonDae hyung?"

"I'm not a composer, and you don't have to believe me unconditionally. Your senses are better than other people's words..."

"No!"

RaeBin bowed his head.

"Hyung's judgment of songs has always been objective and excellent. I never missed it, but I suppose I didn't arrange it correctly this time..."

"..."

I feel like I got hit in the head.

This guy was even more shocked by it.

'He noticed that my judgment on the songs was particularly good.'

That's thanks to the attribute "Attuned Ear (A)."

He probably didn't notice that because he had something unusual as a skill, but he knew right away because he had a good sense of music.

"MoonDae hyung's choices are always excellent."

He thought he was criticized by the evaluator he trusted the most for his objectivity.

'Haa...'

I felt a bitter taste.

I won't lie. In fact, even now, I didn't think Kim RaeBin's arrangement was very good.

'It was too cliché to be Kim RaeBin's.'

I thought an AR team member had done it.

And since I got this ability thanks to the status window, it's definitely warranted...

'Wait, status window?'

At that moment, some examples of my experiences flashed through my mind.

'...'

I opened Kim RaeBin's status window.

I hoped not, but there was a word added at the end that I hadn't seen.

Status normality: "Repeat sign"!

Damn.

[Repeat sign]

Missing steps

→ Negative feedback that decreases the sense of the "Master" characteristic.

TN: "길 잃은 제자리걸음" (missed steps) means either "to go around", "to be at a standstill" or "to be at a standstill". "Repeat sign" is a musical symbol indicating a section in which musical notes are to be repeated. Examples are in the chapter folder.

"B-but... Excessive means there's too much songwriting in the song? So, if I take this out here... Could you tell me how this sounds? Is it better than before? Has it improved?"

"..."

This... this is not going to work.

It was clear that this guy had gone completely crazy.

I know that now. The reason Kim RaeBin seemed strong in the face of criticism was because he could immediately think of alternatives and come up with them.

But now it seemed like his defense system had completely collapsed. He is dependent.

'Damn...'

I received his headset, but I didn't use it. Instead, I asked him...

"...How does that sound to you?"

I heard RaeBin sob quietly.

"I don't know... I tried to produce the results that people would expect by reflecting as much as possible on what they said was good, but... I don't know if I did it right."

"Do what you want to do."

"I don't even know what I want to do specifically..."

I know what you're talking about.

'His mental stability is broken.'

I know this guy has a humble side that faithfully accepts other people's opinions.

But at the same time, he had faith in his own abilities.

He has an instinctive level of conviction that if someone likes it, it's good, and if they don't like it, it's bad.

So even if he is given criticism, he will absorb it based on his own judgment whether filtered or interpreted by himself.

He has a style that runs as he understands it, as he is inspired.

'It's a basic personality.'

For example, look at how he interpreted a T-Holic member's comment to him about group members being in a family on their own.

But this time, the pattern has changed a bit.

As better-than-expected reviews emerged from an unspecified majority (general public), he was overwhelmed by direct fire.

'He began to lose his confidence.'

The thought that he should not disappoint and the pressure to produce perfect results destroyed his joy.

As he began to lose his personality, his songs began to lose their individuality.

However, after receiving harsh criticism, he was completely embarrassed and overly worried about the evaluation. It is the first failure of his life.

'It's a vicious circle.'

I restrained myself from cursing.

I calmed the guy who was about to burst into tears and confiscated his laptop.

"Stop this for now. Even if you don't do this, you're a capable guy and there's still a lot to do. Let it go for now."

"..."

"I'm not saying this because I don't think you can do it, but if you keep going at this pace and have insomnia, things will get worse."

"When I've finished a draft..."

"Oh, no."

I confiscated his laptop and, even though he was conflicted, I told him.

"...If you were doing it for self-satisfaction, it should be none of my business, but right now it's ruining your condition. You can't even sleep."

"..."

Kim RaeBin bowed his head.

I patted his shoulder, only to realize that I had no talent for this sort of thing.

'Fuck.'

Countermeasures were needed.

* * *

Kim RaeBin faithfully participated in the program even after dawn.

But his former witty sense had been shattered.

And one of the guys who noticed it found the reason in my room.

"Park MoonDae, is that his laptop?"

Keun SeJin said seriously.

"Just let him do it. He'll get over it."

"..."

After shaking my head sharply, I answered a second late.

A solution I have been kneading and refining for a few days.

"So, rent a mountain cabin."

"What?"

I didn't say it as a joke.

I remembered Kim RaeBin's state abnormality.

A negative reaction is affecting the "Master" feature, which accelerates the production speed of a song almost to an excellent industrial level.

It diminishes RaeBin's exceptional creative sense.

'In the end, he got a negative effect from being obsessed with performance and efficiency.'

So it's simple.

Let's make some unproductive creations that have nothing to do with TeSTAR performance.

So I started planning a lousy utility healing course that I had never considered in my life.

It was a self-improvement camp.

"Just... let's go to the mountains."

Not destiny.

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