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< Chapter 352The festival is over.The Internet was flooded with various reviews and photos of TeSTAR.The university community is also responding.-How dare you sing a song of encouragement there and induce us to sing? Let's make Park MoonDae an honorary student of YeonHee.└HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA-Hey, there are testimonies that the manager was about to cry under the stage because Kingstar's 3 encore songs were so good.-I did a good job paying to go see them. I liked their moraleGood reviews, favorable opinions, good reputation.A fancam was uploaded and comments are increasing.-The live performance was crazy. Waah, that's how they work-Do a Waterbomb too.... I'm not saying this out of self-interest at all.-I hope they upload a lot of fancams of the songs they promote. I'm overwhelmed because it looks so real ㅠㅠ.
TL/N: 'Waterbomb' comes from the 'Waterbomb festival', South Korea's most iconic summer festival as it features live performances with popular artists and idol groups, but with fun elements such as water guns aimed at both the artists and the audience near the stage. They are entertaining and seductive performances for the summer.I hope they will write a lot of comments.I could do tomorrow's schedule right now, but that's something I can't guarantee.Scrolling down on the screen, there is a video in which I grab the hand microphone unexpectedly and dare to sing a song of encouragement.-This video clearly screams that he is an idol.-His quick response is really crazyQuick response?If doing what one knows is called 'quickness,' then they should call this son of a bitch a 'tiger.'Park MoonDae is the kind of person who sees the gains from information differences and wipes his mouth. But his head doesn't work well in a crisis situation.A really witty bastard would have given a quick response and said something else there.I mean...Seon AhHyun's words.".....""I-I'm sorry.....""No. No."Instead of repeating words like an idiot who doesn't even know his native language.Instead of standing around staring stupidly at each other until the returning guys finally dragged Seon AhHyun and I out of the bathroom.I would rather...'Stop.'Abandon the unproductive assumptions.Move on to the next situation and start thinking again.And I...I think I went into my room, and Seon AhHyun went to his room...didn't he?'It's likely.'He wasn't taken outside. Then it means he might still be in the apartment and his condition has calmed down."....."I pressed my face with both hands. My brain seemed to have hardened. I can't think of anything...I must think.That's all I can do, so I can't abandon my duties.Why did this happen...? No, I can't say that.'Why did you create this damn situation, you bastard?'I gritted my teeth.'If you ask me where did this shit start from?Of course it's from the beginning.'I shouldn't have thought to say it in the first place.'Am I crazy?If I predicted that 'if I told them that, they'd send me to a mental hospital,' then I should have kept my mouth shut. What kind of mental state does someone have who says such unrealistic things out of the blue?Could it be because someone else believed me?'You're generalizing from one example, you fucking bastard.'I should have been relieved that my explanation worked after being found out. But why did I have to tell a guy who didn't know anything?Is there any reason to objectively understand this crazy sound? Did I have to talk about it because I 'wanted to'?"It's useless..."Isn't this what it's like to be in a shitty mess?'Seon AhHyun's state abnormality...'It's been reactivated. What the hell am I going to do?"....."Now I know the cause, but is that all? I know I did something stupid, so it is essential to find a solution...'Shut up.'I covered my mouth. The palm of my hand clenched my teeth.I'll stop doing useless things and go back to looking at reality rationally.'There are things to do.'...Somehow, Seon AhHyun's abnormal condition must be deactivated again.Seon AhHyun has been able to deactivate his abnormal condition so far thanks to his ability.'Tenacity.'[Tenacity(A)]Your mentality is your own doing. Turn on your concentration and control your negative state.→ When the attribute is active, a state abnormality is deactivated (highest priority).However, this feature...was disabled because of the crap I was talking about, and the status anomaly came back again.I clenched my fist.'Before...'Before I was able to convince AhHyun thanks to my ability."Just think 'I'm going to do this.'"Seon AhHyun understood my words and decided to concentrate only on the task in front of him at that moment.But my current words may not be persuasive.For I am the one who confused him so that he would not concentrate on his work.He'll think I'm crazy, so it won't work..."....."My brain is numb.'What can I do...'One way to convince.As before...I called up my status window reflexively. Then a pop-up window appeared as if I had been waiting.[Hyung...]It's KeunDal.He didn't say anything else. I think the pop-up is shaking...Is it because I don't look pleased?Whatever.I muttered under my breath."Can you...bring up a characteristic again?"One that could convince anyone."....."The status window didn't move.And after a while, a short text message appeared.[No.]Oh.Yeah, I knew it.[I'm sorry...]"You have nothing to apologize for."Why does everyone apologize to me when I say stupid things? Is it in their manual guide?Why did I have to do that...?[Hyung, it's not your fault. It's really not.]"Yes, it is."It wasn't that someone made me do it, it happened because there was a problem in my mentality.'I lost my mind.'Other than that, there's another conclusion.....Ttok, ttok."MoonDae-yah."Someone is calling.When I turned my head, I saw Ryu CheongWoo's face cautiously peeking into the room."AhHyun calmed down and is fine."".....""Although you said you wanted to be alone...I'm sorry. I want to go inside."Ryu CheongWoo approached with an uncomfortable face and sat down gently on his bed.I don't want to hear any more apologies."Hyung, it's your room too, so it's up to you.""...Hmm, okay."There was a brief silence.Ryu CheongWoo opened his mouth again."MoonDae-yah, it's natural for you to want to tell someone about your situation."Yes, but it's a different matter if you're stupid enough to talk."It was just a matter of time, don't think about it too much. Okay?""....."I was the one who chose to tell at the time.But there was nothing to answer.Ttok, ttok.Someone else entered the room.'Keun SeJin.'He closed the door after entering, and as soon as he understood the situation, he immediately spoke with a firm face."Park MoonDae. This is my fault. I'm sorry.""....."I feel like I'm going to throw up."How can this be your fault?""Because I encouraged you."What is that guy saying right now without changing the expression on his face?"I made a mistake because I thought AhHyun would believe you."".....""I thought you were too nervous when you talked to me, so I was hoping you wouldn't be like that again. I crossed the line. You just did what you had to do.""No."I pressed my temples."Stop. I was the one who said it. ""That's..."Keun SeJin opened his mouth as if to say more, but soon closed it.I was grateful for it. I thought my head was going to break."It's no one's fault, it just happened that way, so stop it."Ryu CheongWoo stepped in and clarified. I couldn't agree, but I did.I didn't expect him to say the following though."But...MoonDae-yah, how about we take a little break?""....."What?"We've been active for over two weeks, so I think it's okay to take a few days off now. On the agency side, it's okay to say that we are all resting due to flu or body aches."He continued in a soft, cautious voice."Wouldn't it be okay to take a break and reorganize?"Reorganization.And the option to cease work."....."If I have a conscience and think about Seon AhHyun's condition, I should agree.Considering the crazy difficulty of realizing the live performance of our current theme song, the decrease of AhHyun's ability will be noticed immediately.So it's obvious what we will hear. Cursing and controversy will come out.'It is right to rest.'If I'm in my right mind, I shouldn't say let's work at this time.But...I turned my head and looked at the pop-up window in the status window I hadn't yet turned off."....."If I rest, this guy...[Hyung, give yourself a break while you rest...Please.]There's not much time left now. If I can't break a record with this activity, this person will die. He'll go back to being a status window.This bastard has it clear and yet he's asking me to rest...".....That."My head is about to explode.Shit, there's too much to think about, too much to deal with...What the hell is this...?Suddenly the words came out."Later."Stop.Don't say anything that doesn't work. There is no 'later.'We have a timetable at dawn. Less than 4 hours left. Even now, I have to make an accurate judgment quickly. I must be efficient....."MoonDae-yah."Someone grabbed my shoulder.It's Ryu CheongWoo."Then let's put the schedule aside for three days for now. It won't be a problem after three days. There are a lot of things we've already filmed. Is it okay, Park MoonDae?""....."I nodded my head.I don't know what I can do with that. Whatever.* * *At the same time, in the living room.Kim RaeBin was suffering for Seon AhHyun while holding the hot tea he used to drink with both hands."I guess...I should say that an incident has happened between the two of them."Cha YooJin shook his head. His dear friend had a great talent as an artist, but this problem was pancake disease.TL/N: '젬병' (jembyong) is a type of Korean 'pancake' different from hotteok (popular Korean pancake), but it also means 'lousy quality,' 'poor,' 'hopeless.' Why? Because this type of pancake is not very attractive and it seems to be not tasty, so they use this word as slang as well. In this case, YooJin thinks that his understanding about interpersonal relationships is lousy. So he was honest."We all know that, Kim RaeBin.""....."Kim RaeBin nodded his head with a depressed face instead of annoyed.That's how serious the situation was.'It's really a disaster.'Seon AhHyun looked like a self-destructive sleepwalker and Park MoonDae seemed to faint from shock. He had to carry him halfway to his bed.Cha YooJin honestly couldn't understand why the situation was like this.He thinks they are apologizing to each other, doesn't that mean they don't have bad feelings?However, at the same time, he understood the situation by logic.'Well, I don't think everyone had many friends.'He often saw relationships where the parties thought the other was so important that, over time, it made the problems between the two of them heavy.They were really awkward people. Although that sincerity was also the charm of these group members.'Hmm...that hyung is also like that.'He saw Bae Sejin staggering with a loser face until he reached the living room and sat down."Why...am I so bad at talking?"It seemed that he had failed in trying to speak nicely to Seon AhHyun.Feeling a little sad, he nodded."I speak well. I'll come back after I talk to him.""Wait."Originally, he was going to go first to help Park MoonDae regain his energy, but isn't the situation more difficult when he needs advice as well as comfort?'I have to go to a place like this.'Cha YooJin shrugged his shoulders and confidently knocked on the door of Kim RaeBin's room, that is, Seon AhHyun's room.Seeing that no one stopped him, his choice seemed right!"Hyung, I'm coming in.""....."Ppigok.When he opened the door and entered, Seon AhHyun was sitting on the bed in front of the moonlit window.He had a stiff posture and a pale complexion as if his soul had slipped away. He looked more like a wreck than a man.Although it was possible thanks to the sedative."Hyung, are you all right?""....."Seon AhHyun nodded his head very slowly. Perhaps due to the medicine, his eyes seemed to be out of focus."Do you feel well?"Silence.Cha YooJin sat beside him and immediately went to the point."Can't you tell me anything? MoonDae hyung's secret?"".....!"Seon AhHyun looked away. It was only then that he looked like a human being. Cha YooJin shrugged his shoulders."Everyone has a secret. I know it even if I don't listen to it!"Well, isn't it strange enough to have no secrets in life?And sharing or not sharing such secrets was just a choice.Does sharing a lot of secrets make people become closer and good friends? Does it make you get to know that person better?Cha YooJin didn't think so.'If it doesn't happen naturally, it becomes a heavy burden.'He wasn't sure, but maybe it's such a situation happening right now."Whatever it was, you heard hyung's secret and that's when the problem occurred."Seon AhHyun was still motionless, but a low voice spoke."I-I...messed it up.""Then fix it."".....!""Don't think I'm saying it like it's something easy. Hmm, hyung, I don't think MoonDae hyung hurt you."Cha YooJin looked at Seon AhHyun."Then sleep well right now. If you think about it, it will be easier to talk to fix it when you have a clear mind."It was a tip to relax and get out of the panic.And the answer came."I-I know."Sun Ah-hyun murmured softly under his breath."...T-then, I...It won't work.""...!""All the time, I know. I know, but I don't do anything...!"In Seon AhHyun's eyes while saying that, Cha YooJin confirmed a very clear feeling.'That's...'It was self-loathing, anger.Seon AhHyun knew it too, why wouldn't he know it?Because there's nothing he can do like that right now, so it's better to shut up and sleep.But it's not like that. It is because he is anxious, because the fear of ruining everything dominates his mind.Likewise, he realized the moment he heard Park MoonDae's 'secret.''No.....'MoonDae's situations in the past.Considering the memory loss, the nightmares, the extreme choices...Generally, that was nothing serious."I'm not Park MoonDae."But that seemed to be a sign that the emotional wounds were spreading to identity issues.And for MoonDae, he was the most appropriate person to tell that issue to.'I have to.'Ryu CheongWoo and Lee SeJin are people who have overcome their mental difficulties on their own. They received little medical help.So, if they are healthy and still fully believe in Park MoonDae...'I was the only one...!'The only one who could report the danger was himself, but that was the only way he could help Park MoonDae.He had been thinking about it and decided countless times to be a helpful friend and colleague who would fulfill his role, but...'I couldn't do that.'...No, he didn't.A precious relationship built on trust and intimacy could end with those words.Because the very possibility was too terrifying.'I'm...the only one who doesn't believe him, what if he ends up hating me for it?''Eventually, MoonDae will get worse. So, I...I can't.''It'll feel, it'll feel really bad.....'But if he kept his mouth shut, they could go ahead getting along.Seon AhHyun squeezed his hands tightly until they turned white.'Whatever happens with MoonDae, it's more important to be close friends with each other.....'Due to his false appearance, Park MoonDae's symptoms were getting worse and worse.TL/N: False appearance means pretending to believe MoonDae and agreeing with everything he said.In the future, if MoonDae really suffers a lot while doing his activities, if it becomes an irreversible situation, then.....'It will be because of me.'He couldn't sleep, so he gathered information to thoroughly know the issue without raising suspicion."Can't we just trust him?"He didn't really believe it, but he wanted to somehow justify that self-justification.Even though he knew everything, there was only one reason why he didn't do anything and ended up screwing things up.'Because I'm...the kind of person who can't help.'No excuses.Even though he was very concerned about doing the good and right things, he ended up doing nothing for what was really precious and scary.And he couldn't help but turn his weak mindedness on his opponent in the worst situation and in the worst way.'I didn't even help, that's...'It's just an injury. He gave Park MoonDae another painful wound...He got a lump in his throat.'Don't suffer anymore.'Self-pity was also a luxury. Seon AhHyun stifled his cry. Crying and apologizing didn't mean receiving leniency."....."Unlike him, Cha YooJin, who was watching, almost clicked his tongue.'He looks like some kind of ascetic medieval monk.'The details were unknown, but just by looking at this atmosphere he could tell. Seon AhHyun was suffering.But Cha YooJin decided to say what he had to say. In the end, anyone has to get out of pain by their own means.Still, he could give her a springboard!"Hmm. I understand. But this situation is a little different."Cha YooJin raised his hand."This time, if you don't do it, MoonDae hyung will.""...!""No matter what happens to this group, MoonDae hyung is the type to solve it."Seon AhHyun raised his head."Hyung is that kind of person. You know that, don't you?"Of course he knew it."So this time, it's not about whether you do it alone or not."".....""Either you act, hyung, or MoonDae hyung does it first. It's one of the two."Seon AhHyun gritted his teeth.If that's the case......Let it be so.* * *At dawn."Let's go, Kongie."CheongRyu walked down the street with his dog, who had finally returned last night.It was just a walk. It was still an activity he did without any problems with sightings.When he went for a walk at the time he usually did, he was glad that everything was back to normal.Although it's funny to call a routine that's only a few years old that way."Hmm."He immediately wrote a text message with a slight smile.[He was discharged.]He could send him a picture he took now."Kongie, come.""Wang!"And he was about to take a picture of the dog's face with a big smile.When he saw a young man sitting on a bench."...Hmm."It was weird because of the time, but he didn't bother.It was because he was a familiar person."Hoobae-nim.""....."Sitting on the dark bench, that young man's hood moved slightly, revealing what was underneath it.It was a familiar face.CheongRyu checked the pale complexion also visible under the mask.Meanwhile, the voice heard is calm."I have a question.""....."It was very strange.And because he had done this weird thing himself, he also made a weird decision."Really? Then let's go in."Just like that, Park MoonDae was invited to VTIC's apartment.In such a spontaneous way that he wouldn't have expected yesterday. >
TL/N: 'Waterbomb' comes from the 'Waterbomb festival', South Korea's most iconic summer festival as it features live performances with popular artists and idol groups, but with fun elements such as water guns aimed at both the artists and the audience near the stage. They are entertaining and seductive performances for the summer.I hope they will write a lot of comments.I could do tomorrow's schedule right now, but that's something I can't guarantee.Scrolling down on the screen, there is a video in which I grab the hand microphone unexpectedly and dare to sing a song of encouragement.-This video clearly screams that he is an idol.-His quick response is really crazyQuick response?If doing what one knows is called 'quickness,' then they should call this son of a bitch a 'tiger.'Park MoonDae is the kind of person who sees the gains from information differences and wipes his mouth. But his head doesn't work well in a crisis situation.A really witty bastard would have given a quick response and said something else there.I mean...Seon AhHyun's words.".....""I-I'm sorry.....""No. No."Instead of repeating words like an idiot who doesn't even know his native language.Instead of standing around staring stupidly at each other until the returning guys finally dragged Seon AhHyun and I out of the bathroom.I would rather...'Stop.'Abandon the unproductive assumptions.Move on to the next situation and start thinking again.And I...I think I went into my room, and Seon AhHyun went to his room...didn't he?'It's likely.'He wasn't taken outside. Then it means he might still be in the apartment and his condition has calmed down."....."I pressed my face with both hands. My brain seemed to have hardened. I can't think of anything...I must think.That's all I can do, so I can't abandon my duties.Why did this happen...? No, I can't say that.'Why did you create this damn situation, you bastard?'I gritted my teeth.'If you ask me where did this shit start from?Of course it's from the beginning.'I shouldn't have thought to say it in the first place.'Am I crazy?If I predicted that 'if I told them that, they'd send me to a mental hospital,' then I should have kept my mouth shut. What kind of mental state does someone have who says such unrealistic things out of the blue?Could it be because someone else believed me?'You're generalizing from one example, you fucking bastard.'I should have been relieved that my explanation worked after being found out. But why did I have to tell a guy who didn't know anything?Is there any reason to objectively understand this crazy sound? Did I have to talk about it because I 'wanted to'?"It's useless..."Isn't this what it's like to be in a shitty mess?'Seon AhHyun's state abnormality...'It's been reactivated. What the hell am I going to do?"....."Now I know the cause, but is that all? I know I did something stupid, so it is essential to find a solution...'Shut up.'I covered my mouth. The palm of my hand clenched my teeth.I'll stop doing useless things and go back to looking at reality rationally.'There are things to do.'...Somehow, Seon AhHyun's abnormal condition must be deactivated again.Seon AhHyun has been able to deactivate his abnormal condition so far thanks to his ability.'Tenacity.'[Tenacity(A)]Your mentality is your own doing. Turn on your concentration and control your negative state.→ When the attribute is active, a state abnormality is deactivated (highest priority).However, this feature...was disabled because of the crap I was talking about, and the status anomaly came back again.I clenched my fist.'Before...'Before I was able to convince AhHyun thanks to my ability."Just think 'I'm going to do this.'"Seon AhHyun understood my words and decided to concentrate only on the task in front of him at that moment.But my current words may not be persuasive.For I am the one who confused him so that he would not concentrate on his work.He'll think I'm crazy, so it won't work..."....."My brain is numb.'What can I do...'One way to convince.As before...I called up my status window reflexively. Then a pop-up window appeared as if I had been waiting.[Hyung...]It's KeunDal.He didn't say anything else. I think the pop-up is shaking...Is it because I don't look pleased?Whatever.I muttered under my breath."Can you...bring up a characteristic again?"One that could convince anyone."....."The status window didn't move.And after a while, a short text message appeared.[No.]Oh.Yeah, I knew it.[I'm sorry...]"You have nothing to apologize for."Why does everyone apologize to me when I say stupid things? Is it in their manual guide?Why did I have to do that...?[Hyung, it's not your fault. It's really not.]"Yes, it is."It wasn't that someone made me do it, it happened because there was a problem in my mentality.'I lost my mind.'Other than that, there's another conclusion.....Ttok, ttok."MoonDae-yah."Someone is calling.When I turned my head, I saw Ryu CheongWoo's face cautiously peeking into the room."AhHyun calmed down and is fine."".....""Although you said you wanted to be alone...I'm sorry. I want to go inside."Ryu CheongWoo approached with an uncomfortable face and sat down gently on his bed.I don't want to hear any more apologies."Hyung, it's your room too, so it's up to you.""...Hmm, okay."There was a brief silence.Ryu CheongWoo opened his mouth again."MoonDae-yah, it's natural for you to want to tell someone about your situation."Yes, but it's a different matter if you're stupid enough to talk."It was just a matter of time, don't think about it too much. Okay?""....."I was the one who chose to tell at the time.But there was nothing to answer.Ttok, ttok.Someone else entered the room.'Keun SeJin.'He closed the door after entering, and as soon as he understood the situation, he immediately spoke with a firm face."Park MoonDae. This is my fault. I'm sorry.""....."I feel like I'm going to throw up."How can this be your fault?""Because I encouraged you."What is that guy saying right now without changing the expression on his face?"I made a mistake because I thought AhHyun would believe you."".....""I thought you were too nervous when you talked to me, so I was hoping you wouldn't be like that again. I crossed the line. You just did what you had to do.""No."I pressed my temples."Stop. I was the one who said it. ""That's..."Keun SeJin opened his mouth as if to say more, but soon closed it.I was grateful for it. I thought my head was going to break."It's no one's fault, it just happened that way, so stop it."Ryu CheongWoo stepped in and clarified. I couldn't agree, but I did.I didn't expect him to say the following though."But...MoonDae-yah, how about we take a little break?""....."What?"We've been active for over two weeks, so I think it's okay to take a few days off now. On the agency side, it's okay to say that we are all resting due to flu or body aches."He continued in a soft, cautious voice."Wouldn't it be okay to take a break and reorganize?"Reorganization.And the option to cease work."....."If I have a conscience and think about Seon AhHyun's condition, I should agree.Considering the crazy difficulty of realizing the live performance of our current theme song, the decrease of AhHyun's ability will be noticed immediately.So it's obvious what we will hear. Cursing and controversy will come out.'It is right to rest.'If I'm in my right mind, I shouldn't say let's work at this time.But...I turned my head and looked at the pop-up window in the status window I hadn't yet turned off."....."If I rest, this guy...[Hyung, give yourself a break while you rest...Please.]There's not much time left now. If I can't break a record with this activity, this person will die. He'll go back to being a status window.This bastard has it clear and yet he's asking me to rest...".....That."My head is about to explode.Shit, there's too much to think about, too much to deal with...What the hell is this...?Suddenly the words came out."Later."Stop.Don't say anything that doesn't work. There is no 'later.'We have a timetable at dawn. Less than 4 hours left. Even now, I have to make an accurate judgment quickly. I must be efficient....."MoonDae-yah."Someone grabbed my shoulder.It's Ryu CheongWoo."Then let's put the schedule aside for three days for now. It won't be a problem after three days. There are a lot of things we've already filmed. Is it okay, Park MoonDae?""....."I nodded my head.I don't know what I can do with that. Whatever.* * *At the same time, in the living room.Kim RaeBin was suffering for Seon AhHyun while holding the hot tea he used to drink with both hands."I guess...I should say that an incident has happened between the two of them."Cha YooJin shook his head. His dear friend had a great talent as an artist, but this problem was pancake disease.TL/N: '젬병' (jembyong) is a type of Korean 'pancake' different from hotteok (popular Korean pancake), but it also means 'lousy quality,' 'poor,' 'hopeless.' Why? Because this type of pancake is not very attractive and it seems to be not tasty, so they use this word as slang as well. In this case, YooJin thinks that his understanding about interpersonal relationships is lousy. So he was honest."We all know that, Kim RaeBin.""....."Kim RaeBin nodded his head with a depressed face instead of annoyed.That's how serious the situation was.'It's really a disaster.'Seon AhHyun looked like a self-destructive sleepwalker and Park MoonDae seemed to faint from shock. He had to carry him halfway to his bed.Cha YooJin honestly couldn't understand why the situation was like this.He thinks they are apologizing to each other, doesn't that mean they don't have bad feelings?However, at the same time, he understood the situation by logic.'Well, I don't think everyone had many friends.'He often saw relationships where the parties thought the other was so important that, over time, it made the problems between the two of them heavy.They were really awkward people. Although that sincerity was also the charm of these group members.'Hmm...that hyung is also like that.'He saw Bae Sejin staggering with a loser face until he reached the living room and sat down."Why...am I so bad at talking?"It seemed that he had failed in trying to speak nicely to Seon AhHyun.Feeling a little sad, he nodded."I speak well. I'll come back after I talk to him.""Wait."Originally, he was going to go first to help Park MoonDae regain his energy, but isn't the situation more difficult when he needs advice as well as comfort?'I have to go to a place like this.'Cha YooJin shrugged his shoulders and confidently knocked on the door of Kim RaeBin's room, that is, Seon AhHyun's room.Seeing that no one stopped him, his choice seemed right!"Hyung, I'm coming in.""....."Ppigok.When he opened the door and entered, Seon AhHyun was sitting on the bed in front of the moonlit window.He had a stiff posture and a pale complexion as if his soul had slipped away. He looked more like a wreck than a man.Although it was possible thanks to the sedative."Hyung, are you all right?""....."Seon AhHyun nodded his head very slowly. Perhaps due to the medicine, his eyes seemed to be out of focus."Do you feel well?"Silence.Cha YooJin sat beside him and immediately went to the point."Can't you tell me anything? MoonDae hyung's secret?"".....!"Seon AhHyun looked away. It was only then that he looked like a human being. Cha YooJin shrugged his shoulders."Everyone has a secret. I know it even if I don't listen to it!"Well, isn't it strange enough to have no secrets in life?And sharing or not sharing such secrets was just a choice.Does sharing a lot of secrets make people become closer and good friends? Does it make you get to know that person better?Cha YooJin didn't think so.'If it doesn't happen naturally, it becomes a heavy burden.'He wasn't sure, but maybe it's such a situation happening right now."Whatever it was, you heard hyung's secret and that's when the problem occurred."Seon AhHyun was still motionless, but a low voice spoke."I-I...messed it up.""Then fix it."".....!""Don't think I'm saying it like it's something easy. Hmm, hyung, I don't think MoonDae hyung hurt you."Cha YooJin looked at Seon AhHyun."Then sleep well right now. If you think about it, it will be easier to talk to fix it when you have a clear mind."It was a tip to relax and get out of the panic.And the answer came."I-I know."Sun Ah-hyun murmured softly under his breath."...T-then, I...It won't work.""...!""All the time, I know. I know, but I don't do anything...!"In Seon AhHyun's eyes while saying that, Cha YooJin confirmed a very clear feeling.'That's...'It was self-loathing, anger.Seon AhHyun knew it too, why wouldn't he know it?Because there's nothing he can do like that right now, so it's better to shut up and sleep.But it's not like that. It is because he is anxious, because the fear of ruining everything dominates his mind.Likewise, he realized the moment he heard Park MoonDae's 'secret.''No.....'MoonDae's situations in the past.Considering the memory loss, the nightmares, the extreme choices...Generally, that was nothing serious."I'm not Park MoonDae."But that seemed to be a sign that the emotional wounds were spreading to identity issues.And for MoonDae, he was the most appropriate person to tell that issue to.'I have to.'Ryu CheongWoo and Lee SeJin are people who have overcome their mental difficulties on their own. They received little medical help.So, if they are healthy and still fully believe in Park MoonDae...'I was the only one...!'The only one who could report the danger was himself, but that was the only way he could help Park MoonDae.He had been thinking about it and decided countless times to be a helpful friend and colleague who would fulfill his role, but...'I couldn't do that.'...No, he didn't.A precious relationship built on trust and intimacy could end with those words.Because the very possibility was too terrifying.'I'm...the only one who doesn't believe him, what if he ends up hating me for it?''Eventually, MoonDae will get worse. So, I...I can't.''It'll feel, it'll feel really bad.....'But if he kept his mouth shut, they could go ahead getting along.Seon AhHyun squeezed his hands tightly until they turned white.'Whatever happens with MoonDae, it's more important to be close friends with each other.....'Due to his false appearance, Park MoonDae's symptoms were getting worse and worse.TL/N: False appearance means pretending to believe MoonDae and agreeing with everything he said.In the future, if MoonDae really suffers a lot while doing his activities, if it becomes an irreversible situation, then.....'It will be because of me.'He couldn't sleep, so he gathered information to thoroughly know the issue without raising suspicion."Can't we just trust him?"He didn't really believe it, but he wanted to somehow justify that self-justification.Even though he knew everything, there was only one reason why he didn't do anything and ended up screwing things up.'Because I'm...the kind of person who can't help.'No excuses.Even though he was very concerned about doing the good and right things, he ended up doing nothing for what was really precious and scary.And he couldn't help but turn his weak mindedness on his opponent in the worst situation and in the worst way.'I didn't even help, that's...'It's just an injury. He gave Park MoonDae another painful wound...He got a lump in his throat.'Don't suffer anymore.'Self-pity was also a luxury. Seon AhHyun stifled his cry. Crying and apologizing didn't mean receiving leniency."....."Unlike him, Cha YooJin, who was watching, almost clicked his tongue.'He looks like some kind of ascetic medieval monk.'The details were unknown, but just by looking at this atmosphere he could tell. Seon AhHyun was suffering.But Cha YooJin decided to say what he had to say. In the end, anyone has to get out of pain by their own means.Still, he could give her a springboard!"Hmm. I understand. But this situation is a little different."Cha YooJin raised his hand."This time, if you don't do it, MoonDae hyung will.""...!""No matter what happens to this group, MoonDae hyung is the type to solve it."Seon AhHyun raised his head."Hyung is that kind of person. You know that, don't you?"Of course he knew it."So this time, it's not about whether you do it alone or not."".....""Either you act, hyung, or MoonDae hyung does it first. It's one of the two."Seon AhHyun gritted his teeth.If that's the case......Let it be so.* * *At dawn."Let's go, Kongie."CheongRyu walked down the street with his dog, who had finally returned last night.It was just a walk. It was still an activity he did without any problems with sightings.When he went for a walk at the time he usually did, he was glad that everything was back to normal.Although it's funny to call a routine that's only a few years old that way."Hmm."He immediately wrote a text message with a slight smile.[He was discharged.]He could send him a picture he took now."Kongie, come.""Wang!"And he was about to take a picture of the dog's face with a big smile.When he saw a young man sitting on a bench."...Hmm."It was weird because of the time, but he didn't bother.It was because he was a familiar person."Hoobae-nim.""....."Sitting on the dark bench, that young man's hood moved slightly, revealing what was underneath it.It was a familiar face.CheongRyu checked the pale complexion also visible under the mask.Meanwhile, the voice heard is calm."I have a question.""....."It was very strange.And because he had done this weird thing himself, he also made a weird decision."Really? Then let's go in."Just like that, Park MoonDae was invited to VTIC's apartment.In such a spontaneous way that he wouldn't have expected yesterday. >
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